Hey y’all! I so wasn’t planning on blogging today but as I sit here watching Sami play with his truck and I’m polishing off the last of a pint of organic extreme moose tracks ice cream, I was moved to tell you about my morning... and a crazy morning it was indeed! It started off with us planning to drive up to a lovely, tiny town in the foothills of the Serra Nevada’s. We have a small trailer there which acts as a storage unit for the things which don’t fit in the Airstream, but we aren’t willing to part with yet. I have been doing some “nesting,” while preparing for baby two, and I had some things that needed to go up there, so Omar and I had gotten things together in our truck and headed that direction (it’s about a 45 minute drive.) We had to make a quick pit stop at Walmart and as we took again off something didn’t seem right with our truck. Normally it has no problems excellerating and with its V8 engine, and it’s sounds pretty good doing so, but all of a sudden... it started refusing to cooperate. 😐 I didn’t know what was going on at first, but soon Omar pulled off and let me know the trouble. Praise God, our first instinct was to turn off the car and pray. Man, you know that overwhelming sense of dread you have when you know something really bad may have just happened? Yeah... ummm imagine that but add those crazy pregnancy hormones and you can imagine my reaction. I wanted to cry, I wanted to have a panick attack, and I wanted to laugh, all at the same time. Okay, so the laughter may have been the kind of laughter you imagine in a film about insane asylums... but still. So we definitely needed to pray.
Omar prayed a really simple prayer, we turned the car back on, and decided to head home. If something was up, the last thing we wanted to do was get stranded on a mountain road with no cell service. As we start driving back, Omar begins testing the acceleration capabilities again and all of a sudden, things seemed normal. Granted, I’m over in the passanger seat holding my breath and scared silly that all of a sudden the truck is just gonna quit.
After that first try I am not convinced everything is fine, like what if the truck isn’t fine and something bad is still gonna happen, and the truck is just playing a nasty prank on us, giving us a false sense of hope? So I look over at Omar and ask, “So what are we going to do? Do we need to drive back to Antioch?” Antioch is where our mechanic is located, if you didn’t know, which you probably didn’t. Haha!
Now what most people don’t know, as a bit of a back story, is that we had quite an unfortunate tax season where we ended up paying a large amount of money that we were totally unprepared to pay and have since had to go into a small amount of debt. It’s unfortunate, but the bills are getting paid so God is good.
Anyway, now that you understand that ,the last thing we wanted to do is add to our bills with the possibility of a new transmission or some extensive mechanical work. So asking Omar what we’re going to do is more than just, “what do we do in the moment” but, “how are we going to afford this and what are our options?”
From the deepest part of my heart, it was more of a plea for some other option! We can’t stop driving our truck, as it’s our only safe means of transportation for all three of us together, and it’s also how we haul our Airstream, which is NO easy task!
Now one more quick back story, sorry 😐 At about 6am this morning I felt really prompted to pray for our finances and God’s supernatural provision and guidance. This comes at a very “exciting” time, considering the up coming bills that come with adding a new member to the family and paying what is left of our deductible. Omar was awake and we prayed together... after I had exhausted myself trying to work things out on my own, in my head. That method of working things out on my own rarely works in my favor. Haha!
So now, here I am, riding in the passenger seat of a truck which I’m afraid is a ticking time bomb, thinking about how much money we need, how we’re going to afford a new transmission, and praying the truck really is okay and it’s not just teasing us... At this point Omar looks over and says something that moved my heart to the core and caused my faith to grow like Jack’s beanstalk. He looks at me and says, “We’re going to be fine, God knew.”
“Huh?” I ask.
“If our transmission is bad, God already knew it.”
And that’s when it hit me, hard! God knew before the very foundations of time if our very important hauling truck’s transmission was going to go out. God already knew our financial situation. God already knew we couldn’t afford a new transmission without adding to our debt. God knew.
You may be reading and going, “Okay sure, God knew. But why does that matter?” I’ll tell you why, because God knew, He also knows how to provide. He know what we need, He sees every situation and He has promised us that He will never forsake us! Jesus was speaking once and said, “if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will God give good gifts to those who love Him?”
Y’all, that’s what struck my heart to its core! God knew we may have an issue, and Christ already had a remedy. He knows what we need, and He will give it to us when the time is right. Does it mean we won’t have to go into debt? Maybe not. But it does mean that God will give us wisdom to know what to do to honor Him and give us a plan. What if we were going to be in a car accident on our way up and kept us from going? What if I was going to have some complication with my pregnancy, an hour from any sort of hospital? What if God just wanted to increase our faith and have us pray in earnest? What if there is something even bigger than I can see? I have been walking with God for 19 years and never once in those 19 years has God failed to provide for me or hold me. Yes, I’ve walked through hard places, I’ve had hurt, I’ve struggled, I’ve failed. But never once has He not come through.
Just 6 months ago, we were searching high and low for this truck and a trailer for us to live in full time! We didn’t know how we were going to afford both. We knew God called us to step out in faith, but faith ain’t always easy. Can I get an “Amen”? And then out of the blue we get a call offering us a beautiful, limited edition Airstream trailer... for free... Yeah, that’s not something that happens every day, ya know? We call it a reward for believing God to be faithful, and indeed He has been.
So, I just want to encourage you today with our little morning story. If you feel overwhelmed by your circumstances, or confused about why these crazy things keep happening to you, remember this, God knew. The Creator and Savior of the world already knew your circumstances and He will come to your rescue. Believe that He is faithful, and I can guarantee He will reward your faith!
So where are we at now? We drove the car home safely, with no problems accelerating, might I add. We ended up going to a fun truck show, located at the Amador County Fairgrounds, which is where the picture above was taken. We have had a great afternoon together! We have tried the truck out again with no issues. It doesn’t mean there isn’t something wrong, but at least we know, no matter what...God knew.
Have a great weekend, friends!
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